happy and sad

happy and sad is divided by a thin and weak part..
in this second you feel happy then maybe in the next second you will be sad..
sometimes god just don't fair with anything that happened in this life..
god can take away thing that you love in a second..

although it hard.
but u must through it..
that is the way that god made for you..

ps. I will always remember you..
in a memoriam..

the sad song..



I think today will be very busy
I need to practice being by myself
It seems that when tomorrow comes, things'll be alright
When shall we meet and talk?
No, I want to see you right away but
Im afraid of the words of separation

Look into my eyes and tell me
Tell me that you dont like me anymore
Why cant you look at me? Its a lie, right?
We love each other right now
Cant it be by just that?
Fine.. even if you dont say anything
I know it all too well...

I think today will be painful for me
I need to go through the symptoms of separation
It seems that when tomorrow comes, things'll be alright
When I was on my way to meet you, I seemed so happy
But in this moment, I hope time stops

Look into my eyes and tell me
Tell me that you dont like me anymore
Why cant you look at me? Its a lie, right?
We love each other right now
Cant it be by just that?
Fine.. even if you dont say anything
I know it all too well...

I wont ever have another love like this
Theres one thing I want to ask
Did you really love me?
Did I treat you badly?
Its not that is it?
If I walk a few more steps
If I dont turn around
I need to let you go without any attachment
Good Bye

tomorrow will be the last day for that shit UN..
haiss..
and the subject will be IPA..
the subject that i hate very much..

can u wish me get my luck tomorrow??
i wish i get my good luck tomorrow.
the biology is damn piss me down..
i hate it..
and of course the chemistry and physics..
god help me please!!


PS. HOPE IT CAN BE THE BEST EXAM and please not too hard for me..

boring day
22-04-09

what the hell for today..
i feel just really bored..
woke up at 9
get bath and going to gramedia
then went to school then went to palangkaraya to buy calculator
then back to school again..
then got class at 3..
got home at 4.30..
then get piano lesson at 5.30
and finished it at 7..

oh my!!
it's just really bored..
nothing to do except study!! study!! study!!
just really depressed for the exam..
can i know??
why that indonesian need to have government exam??
there no government exam in other country..
haiss..
really confused..

the test will come for 5 days..
and i just get nothing about IPA which is biology, chemistry and physics..
it's sucks..
omg!!
god let me survive through this..

and for the one who is getting their test
good luck!!
especially for oppa who get stuck in his test
hahaha...
and for all my friends gud luck for our exam!

PS: i got my exam card already 01-136-164-5
XOXO
gudluck

20-04-09

just now.
when i put off my headset..
then i walked out from my bedroom..
i heard something noisy..
and i smell something that i known well..
i smile to myself..
i knew what it is:
the smell of rain and the sound of rain..

i just really love rain..
it is always there for me..
when i want it to fall down..
it fall down for me..

i don't care of somebody said that rain make flood or what else..
i always love it!

today.
i feel really bored..
wake up in 10 o'clock..
then took a bath..
then got some food..
watched some movie..
went to private and went home..
after that..
open the laptop and started chatting..
then playing some game in facebook.

wow..
how a horrible day..
the good thing is..
tomorrow i will go to school and have some fun with my friend..
it's just a really fun thing..
i will love it..

ok then..
enough for today..
i will play my game again..
bye"..
P.S. the rain is still fall down outside and i can hear the thunder too..

love you..

today ell's b'day..
19-04-09..

ell make her wish.


we got so much fun today..
we got to sun to meet each other..
then we got to dome to get some lunch.. but of course ell treat us to eat..
hahahaha..
but the sad thing is there's no pat..
we wanna give ell some surprise..
but pat hasn't arrived yet..
so we must wait for her..
but it's 2.15
and one of our friends got to watch a movie in 3.00 o'clock..
so we gave her the surprise without pat there..

we sang a happy b'day song to her..
she said that she is so touch of the surprised.
cause first, we all say to her ,'sorry ell,we forget to buy your present'

than
we wait for pat before cut the cake..
finally,
pat came and we got some picture..


me,jt,jul,pat,clo,and the birthday girl.

then we seperated.
jt went to watch movie..
ell went with her bf..
clo , me ,pat n jul went to gramedia, then A&W
then clo went home and three of us and jt watch i know who kill me..
haha..

it's just really" fun today..
miss you guys..
see you in school on tuesday..
muach"..

with all my love,fin
oyasumi!

SCARY PHOTO

model:Juliana
photographer:Juliana
place:Solaria
wow!!
SCARY FACE!!
she is good to be a specialist ghost actress..

today is the last day of our exam..
but another exam will come soon..
after exam.. we moved on to cambridge and got some lunch there..
we got our lunch in solaria..





this is the menu of our lunch..

Pat:

XOXO + 1 teh manis hangat

Fin:

+ 2 teh manis hangat

Clo:

+cappuccino

Jul:

+avocado juice and mineral water

Jt:

+ cappuccino

the place where we sat was so cold..
coz it was under the aircon..
so, when the meal came we must eat it quickly..

then after that we finished our lunch, we went to sun plaza to got and bought something there..
after that
our destination is clo's house..
to dropped her to her house
and then we got to our house to wrapped thing and saw some videos..
its just so fun today..
then their went home in about 6.30pm
haha.. i Love them!! (muach dearest all my honey)

but we will get our national exam in just one week..
hope we all will pass it..
but it will be not to fun coz clo and jas will not study in sutomo anymore..
(i will miss you guys!!)

then,
now i am planning about what i gonna do tomorrow..
i think i will go to saloon and get some hair treatment there..
hahahaha..
just miss it!!

with all my heart,
Fin^^

today just a really fun day..
i wish i can pass my exam tomorrow..
and get a good mark..

why this song make me feel sad??
i know this is a sad song..
but i never felt this sad until now..
it is such a nice song to me..
hear it + studying is a good thing to me..

i love the meaning of this song..
it's means:

You want to argue with me, but I'm not that bored
I don't know how to apologize, I'm not that smart
I want so much to go back to where we started

You're crying again, but I can't comfort you
I'm shaking my head again, with just a little bit of regret
Our love's progression is stuck, it's too hard to turn back but it can't move forward

But in spite of myself it's appeared in my chest
How many question marks can fit into two hearts?
How many tears have fallen from our eyes because of love?

The expression in your eyes is so full of beauty, taking away my heartbeat
Your gentleness is so close, taking away my heartbeat
Time turns back to the beginning, can I have just one more second?
Waiting for that day when you too will think again
Of that happiness suspended in our memories

i just such a nice song

after doing busy work in school..
we get to MW by pat's car..
it's so overload..
with 6 people inside the car..
which is pat,jt,me,ell,clo,n jul
we get to pizza and get our lunch there..
we meet a cute baby girl..
that stare at me and smile..
so cute..


cute girl

and i got some photo shoot with ell..



ell and me.
just today after the exam..

now when i write this blog..
they are in my house except clo..
when we arrive in front my house, clo's driver is waiting in front of my house..
then she get home..
we are gossiping, getting some photo, playing, joking and laughing like crazy people..
the 1st purpose we came to my house is studying..
but last..
we gossiping..
searching web..
hearing music..
then share bout our problem..



Just getting our mandarin test tomorrow..
need to study now..
bye"

Love this day!!
Gudluck for the exam !!

i just got my biology exam just now..
and..
the result will be very bad..
i just don't understand what thats all about..

hm,,
i just keep thinking of can i pass all of the exam? and going to secondary high school?
government test will come in 13 days..
will study hard than usual..

i just thinking of a girl which is the boy ex-girlfriend can change the boy in friendship..
now the boy always think tha, that girl is his priority..
i know that love can change someone..
but the girl is kind of playing the boy..
sometimes accept the boy and sometime refuse him..
and can she mad with him if him got a close girl friend??
i just think that she can't be like that..
cause she is just him friend..
not his girlfriend anymore..



this is just some piece of someone life..

hope u enjoy it!!..
love..

just day by day gone by usual
but. there something weird inside my feeling..
i know what it is..
but i just try to ignore it..
because this feeling can make me happy and sad..
i just afraid of sad..
sad make me remember of the past..
i just came out from my past..
must i go back there again??

this feeling make me missing someone everyday..
hope to meet and talk to that someone everyday..

can i accept this feeling?
can i still let this feeling stay there?

this feeling make me feel really weird..

hmm..
then other question..
does that someone feel the same??
does that someone miss me?

there's so much question inside here..
the question that must be a secret that can't be talk..

Just hope that it can rain today..
cause with here the rain..
and with smell the rain..
make me feel so peaceful..
make me don't remember all of that bad feeling..

just hope that someone will never hurt my feeling..
i'm praying for that..
day by day..