It's already 2012, I'm glad because I'm going to turn 18 thus tear. Which means there are no 'under-age' title anymore.
Somehow I wish that I will be happier this year. And I also hope to find That someone special in my life.
This few days in the beginning of this year somehow make me feel lonely.
I feel like I lost all of the 'friends' who once here by my side.

Now all I can do is just keep smiling through the day, and keep believing that tomorrow will always be better than today.

Here I am, sitting in the dark.
Start thinking about the dream I have chosen.
The one that I still persuade myself that it will work.
Deep inside. There is a little part that afraid this will never work.
But I still convinced myself.
Everything can be learned right?
Just need to work hard right?
It just about the matter of time right?
I don't know what it will be.
Because my story is just about to start.
And I will definitely try my best in it.

Hwaiting!

It's been so long, this time it's really long, since my last update.
About 1 years and a half maybe?
Life do change each day.
We just won't realize it until we looked back.
It's still as hard as it is. But I'm glad that i still survived.
Truth about life is, when you getting older, you getting loner.
People won't just admit it, they even deny it. But then there comes a day when you will realize that it's true.

I might not who I am 3 years ago, I might not standing in the same place as I did.
But one which never change is I still need someone who I can rely on.
Which never showed up until today.
I have been guessing all my life, should I still do this even more?
Nobody can answer it, only time does.
Let's bravely move forward and find the answer then Finiarti!

- People who hurt the most is The one that pretend to be a strong person -

happy is my feeling now..
sad is my past..

i happy with what i am now..
never trying to look back to my past.
all the hurt there..
future is what i will look for..
my happiness wait me there..
just decided to start my happy life..
lot of fun without sadness..

hope find someone that care and love me..
the one that stand by me forever..
the one that always make me smile..
the one that always wipe my tears away..
the one that try to make me happy..
don't need his 100% attention
just need 50% only..
cause i can't be selfishly..

hope that always have this kind of friends..
friends that always kind, happy and full of joke..
just love you all guys..

and the family who always support me in all such a condition..

starting a new life is not so easy..
i have through all my sadness..
so many tears dropped..
so many hurt feeling..
so many unsaid hurt..
i through that all..
and i am not afraid for this world anymore..

i know god always be there in all of my ways..
he bless me all his way.
and i thank him for that..

and now..
i have a lot of thank you to many person..
who have be my side through all of that..
a years with all of sadness is my past..
now i have my happy happy happy life..

hey,
it's the first time i write my blog in this new year. new month.
not really miss blogging because i have a really busy day this time.

but here i am.
sitting and writing.

still have those feeling.
but i'm sure it's get better and better day by day.

you now, got someone beside you.
left me alone.
ahahaha.. so dramatic.
but for me it's okay,.
someday someone will come into my life again.
because i know that god always prepare someone for someone else.

so so.
this is my life this day,
how about yours?

everything nowadays is change..
you seems to walk away..
it's more than 3 weeks we never talk about everything..
i just miss that time..
i think you'll never think about it.
you just get your own happy holiday..
never ask of my day anymore..
busy on your own..
i just wish i could back to that moment..
can we?
please don't make my day black and white again.
i'm tired..
it's enough in the past..

if u wanna take some time to hear to somebody, i'm sure that u will known them better..
like what i done just now..
just take some time of your busy day and take it to spend with your friend or anyone else, u will find that many things u don't know about him or her, although u feel that u known everything about him or her..
that is what happened to me.

from hearing what my friend talk to me, i have known my friend better..
and know that it is why my friend so busy for this half year..
hear that what is my friend ambition and what his plan for his life..

i'm sure, if u take some time of your time, and hearing people.. it won't waste any of your time..

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and i also wanna tell you that don't always think negative about a person..
i know that some of you think negative about a person because of your experience before..
but not everyone is the same of that person who has did something wrong..
everybody get their own mind..

so, try to get your positive thinking now!!


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and don't always think that you cannot reach ur ambition.
as long as you believe that u can get it. u will.
and as long as you believe that u can't, u will never get it..
but. if u think that u done nothing u can get it, u are wrong..
there always a challenge to get something u want..
so try to break the challenge and u will get ur ambition

BE THE WINNER!!